Monthly skating review: I feel defeated

Mid month skating review...

I feel defeated... not in the sense that I'll give up on skating. But I decided not to skate Friday and Saturday, the only days of the week when I can train in the summer (the rest of the days is crowded), and I canceled my next week private lesson.

The hip is ok... I think, and I really hope is not wishful thinking. I mean is not 100%, but I could skate around it without feeling that I don't allow it heel. I did develop some bad habits of staying off that hip, but I'm confident I'll correct them in no time. I also don't train what I want to train, but what I can. I'm ok with that too.

The problem is that I took few uncharacteristic falls, I think because I protect the hip. I also haven't fall as I usually do, on the roundest part of my buttock, but on the lower part, where the bone is, and it actually hurts... So now I'm afraid to not hurt the hip again, trying to protect myself from the pain in the butt. Have I just made a joke? It's soo not funny...

As with all my frustrations, this one is coming from having an expectation. I was expecting to feel good by now, instead I had a setback.