Mid month update

I had a nightmare last night. We were going back ice skating, there was pre registration to get on the ice and a waiting line outdoor. I could see that the skaters getting of ice were excited and that built the excitement for me to get on ice already! And then, as I entered the building, the rink wasn't familiar. It was redesign in terraces, different levels of ice surfaces. BUT they were very very small... the one on the bottom was the length of a tennis court but narrower, and the upper terraces were really more like balconies. I just couldn't believe that other skaters were content about it. I woke up from the dream right then, so I don't know if I actually tried skating or I just left. In real life I would have left for sure...

As time is passing without skating I have this growing worry that skating won't be the same, for me... I put in the past quite an effort into it. I had to come up with a time management that included sacrificing social life and not pursuing other things. What's happening right now, was unforeseeable...  Still, it is general wisdom that a person should strive to balance different aspects of life.

As I don't have skating to motivate me, I am not keeping up with the muscle conditioning. I was always slim by eating healthy and not sitting much, but before skating I was never what one would call active. It was hard and literally painful work to build up my muscles for skating, mostly through skating, but added lately strengthening exercises to help my skating. Now, I let those go... I am still doing some yoga, ballet, pilates in a relaxed, no pressure manner. Pre covid,myy ballet class was offered through the city park district and now it is moved online. The same instructor also offers online classes light yoga and pilates and ballet conditioning, so I take all of them, but honestly I do less then I would do in a live class.

I came back to my old (before skating) eating habits, light and fresh. Because I'm not active, I'm never hungry these days... And also I don't have to worry about the protein intake (as I'm almost vegan) to keep the muscle strong. Yes, it is clear, skating did make me alter my way of eating... Anyway, I've started to loose the weight I gained last month...

I feel that last month I was in standby, keeping myself ready to start skating at days notice. This month I actually fell I'm consciously letting go of skating so I make room for other things. It could be months until the skating rinks open, and even then, the schedule will be altered and I really cannot just stand and wait. And later, if I'll get now into other things, it's gonna be a fight again to take away time from these other things and put into skating. And even when circumstances will allow, and I would eventually decide to go back to skating as it was, it would be very very hard work. I fell very confused....